Tawny Finstead
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Tawny Finstead's Story
Second Chances
second chances
I grew up in a Christian home and at a young age we began to go to the Catholic church. I asked to be baptized. I had accepted Jesus into my heart and wanted to show obedience. In my teenage years I was picked on many times at the Catholic church. I then began to go to another Church but God was not my motive and I was not seeking him so I felt lost. I was abused in many ways by a family member and lost all sight of Christ, When I needed him most. I drank heavily. I partied frequently. Church was the furthest thing from my mind. I used my body as a way to get attention and to try to fill the void in my life. I moved in with a boy friend sudenly without thinking. I ran up massive amounts of credit card debt, trying to fill the void. I knew at this point there was no way out. No one could helps me. Creditors were calling day and night. I cryed my self to sleep everynight. I was stressed and upset all the time. I was working two full time jobs and trying to go to school and attempt to have a relationship with my bofriend. I felt I couldn't go on. I began to cut myself hoping to get some releif. I only gave me more greif and suffering. I was about to lose my job, my boyfriend and i felt empty and lost. I had know bout Christ my entire life. I felt I was a christian. I would talk to my friend Jamie and she would encourage me to go to church and to pray. I attended a women's retreat wiht her. A few months after I rededicated my life to the Lord. I was driving home from school and I cryed so hard that I had to pull the car over. I was filled with emotions as I ask the Lord Jesus to take control of my life and to forgive me of all my awful sins. I prayed He would help me. After rededicating myself to the Lord, everything changed. I saw the sin in my life and around me. I no longer drank or went to parties. I read my bible daily. I attended church. I prayed for my old friends and told them I couldn't be a part of those things anymore. I sought out more godly friends. I stop listening to secular music. Everything I did was in an attempt to praise God. I even changed jobs. The hardest struggle was to realize I was still living in sin. I lived with a man who was not my husband. So, I moved home. I slept on an air mattress, because there was no room for me. Phil and I are countinuing to date. I hope I have been able to clearly share how Jesus Christ entered my life and has begun to change me from the inside.