Ashlee Cooper
Ashlee Cooper's Story
Who's in the Center?
What God taught me through my struggles with the party scene and "normal college dating relationships."
During College, I definitly struggled with trusting in God and waiting on his timing. The "world" was so appealing to me and thefore I fell into that "wordly lifestyle" Partying, Sex, I did it all. I was using the world to fullfill me and all of my desires. As a result, I got into a lot of relationships with non-christian guys. At the time I thought things were fine but looking back I realize that they were absolutly horrible relationships!!
Because I was in a sorority, I was constanly surronede by fraterntiy guys so naturally, thats who I dated. I dated different guys off an on throughout college and I got involved with a lot of things I shouldn’t have. Me and one guy began to date and we havd what the world would see as a normal college relationship but what God would see as impure. He partied and drank and did all that stuff and I did it all with him. I cared about him and wanted to have a boyfriend so bad that I just let him control the relationship. We went to church once but it’s not something he had any intention of going to on a regular basis. I was already struggling with standing firm and just began to fall away from God. Our relationship was very impure and some things occurred between us that I wish wouldn’t have. I knew that our relationship was not what God wanted but I was too impatient to wait for God to show me the man he wanted me to date.
The hardest/worst part was that the whole time I dated him I knew what I was doing was wrong. I knew that I needed to date a good Christian guy but I was just not willing to wait on God. I didn’t act like a Christian and therefore I grew far from God and feel into deep sin with him. I quit caring about myself. I gained weight because I was always so stressed out about him and me. I just wasn’t happy anymore and it was all a result of having a very ungodly situation as such a big part of my life.
God is continuing to grow me in this very area still today. I origianlly wrote this story spot a few years ago before going on summer project. I would love to tell you that I havent struggled with waiting on God's timing for me but I have. However, he keeps growing me more and more each day. He is the ONLY thing in this world that can fulfill me and you! Not money, not my future husband, not my future kids, nothing!! I have to remind myself each day that HE IS ENOUGH and he WILL give us the desires of our hearts!! My advice to anyone reading this is to fully give your life to him and be aware of all the lies satan puts in our heads. The worldly lifestyle is not fulfilling, in fact, it wears you out and dating the wrong guys does nothing but bring you down! God will provide for ALL your needs and Desires!! Trust Him becuase welllllll...he totally rocks :)